How I Went From Depression to Empowerment (Without Drugs)
With all that's going on in the world, we can find a lot to feel stressed, uncertain or depressed about. But we also have a choice to tap into an innate power that resides within each of us and create an JOYFULLY EMPOWERED lifestyle capable of moving mountains.
If you would have told me this seven years ago, it would have been a very far leap of faith from where I was standing.
In 2016, I was unemployed, homeless, heartbroken, and depressed. I was also a single mom of three budding teenagers. The responsibility of motherhood was a hefty weight in the position I was in. I was craving acceptance, stability, ease, peace and joy.
The inner darkness I kept silently at bay came crashing in when I caught the flu that spring. After four days of pain and agony in a fever-pitched dystopia, I lost it. In an extreme state of desperation, I tried to end my suffering, and ultimately, my life. Luckily, I was unsuccessful; saved by my children.
With a second chance at life, I became determined to shift my perspective and create a better life that I desired for myself and my family. I threw myself into a motivational-fueled rehabilitation. Positive affirmations became my vice. My personal goals were rapid professional advancement and a story-book relationship.
This tactic worked for about three years. I achieved a limited level of stability that an administrative 9-to-5 job provides. I met my twin flame. But this outer validation I craved came with a price. My anxiety-riddled, toxic positivity eventually landed me in the ER for cardiac arrest symptoms. I had three NDEs (Near-Death Experiences) in 72 hours. I was burnt-out by positive thinking yet I was still enrobed by a weighted blanket of disempowerment.
For well over a year, while the world was on lockdown, I was recovering from my 3X brush with death. I was on a strict detox protocol, part of which required me to slow down and rest.
During that time, I was forced again to revamp my life approach. This time, I realized to live the life I truly desired, I had to find a way to make a real change. I surrendered into a deep meditation practice. I learned to just BE in the inner holy sanctuary of stillness. Soon after, I experienced what I refer to as a Divine Sovereignty activation within my DNA. As I integrated these shifts, I felt my irrational fears dissipate. I learned how to tap into my true inner power, not a faux, egoic-driven confidence. And I discovered how to wield my energy, not burn it at both ends with toxic positivity. But the real gemstone I received is I learned how to authentically love and validate myself. My emotional set-point lifted to a consistent vibration of joy and for the first time in my life, I truly felt empowered, centered, and secure within myself.
Now I wake in the mornings with anticipation, not dread, for what the day will bring. A current of joy hums just below the surface of my being. I feel a sense of empowerment within my core that isn’t contingent on situations, possessions, achievements or relationship status. Any curve balls life throws are easily dodged, caught, and pitched right back. I can fall asleep at night feeling grateful for many wonderful things. My heart feels happy most of the time because I am truly in love with Life and its adventures.
How did I do it? Every day, I made a choice. I made a decision to not let depression dictate my life. In those daily baby steps thread together with the many moments of meditative stillness, I became aware that we are beings of energy. And the energy we feel inside is exactly what frames the reality around us. If we can feel it, we can BE it. Whatever “it” is.
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It is my purpose and passion to help those who deeply desire to live their dreams and highest potential but struggle with indecision and self-doubt. It gives me great joy to assist them to go from feeling discouraged and disempowered to feeling authentically joyful and empowered so that they can thrive in their optimal life path, doing what they love and helping others do the same. If you resonate with my story, I invite you to book a session with me. I would love the opportunity to assist you!